I honestly dont....

Baby, I need you to realize that I have something messed up in my head. And that bigger than that fear I have is my abbility to dissaciosciate from people. No, my habbit of it.

Not seeing you is making me forget you.

It's making me forget why i love you.

It's making me forget what it's like to be with you, why you're the man I want to spend my life with.

I was thinking we were fighting a losing battle. That maybe we shouldnt be together.

And seeing you again changed that. But baby, you gotta realize. Those thoughts might show up again. And that's why I need to see you, okay?

It's why I need you to make the effort.

-Love, so, so much painful love,
Anna